''To the guy I don't love"

 

Yes this is a confession as much as it is ironic to the title, could be blasphemy as well, but for me it is the truth. Usually the feeling of happiness or liking someone is portrayed as having butterflies in your stomach or being on cloud nine and to be frankly speaking I don't like anything other than good food in my stomach, not so great with heights either. What I'm saying next could be compliments given like any other girl to you..., when I started my first day of 9th grade while dropping me off school my dad told me or you could say warned me that henceforth my feelings towards guys can change, I being the rebel brushed it off as a joke only to remember those words soon in the future I didn't foresee.

Later that year I met you that's when I realized I transitioned to my teenage self. I just felt soothed in your silk of a voice and delighted when I see your face. Until now I have just heard the power of smile but I was mesmerized by the megawatt smile you give with your eyes widened . You Johnny Vincent Orlando are truly a wizard of smiles, oh what a wonderful power you have! your smile is truly something of magic. One of my longing wish is to run my fingers fondly through your hair, to confirm my suspicions " is your hair as truly as soft as I envision?" Call me conceited for only appreciating the way you look but I'm not a good singer like you and secondly I don't know your character nor how you are behind the scenes(P.S : I don't mean by the bts videos of you on Youtube) . Like a million others I can admire you from afar, even though I know my existence to you is unknown.

So I don't love you nor like you, how can I ? when I barely know you? And I don't think I want to know, like the Pandora box I best feel I don't unbox your layers for my feelings which will tumble down like a house of cards when you aren't who I expect. Now you maybe wondering what is the whole point of telling you this, as humans aren't we all irrational when it comes to emotions? And my emotion towards you is pure admiration of your talent to sing and bring bliss to who listens to it. To put it shortly Johnny, you are an excellent guy with a stunning voice and smile including gorgeous looks who have already captured my attention and heart of people round the globe. Keep smiling Johnny for you are like the sun whose rays when shone brightly on others will make them shine as well...

- Sincerely,

    khushi